{"product_id":"shadow-of-my-soul-book-5","title":"Shadow of my Soul Book 05","description":"\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003e\u003cem\u003eThis book is not a novel I invented to occupy strangers’ hearts for a little while\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/strong\u003e. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eIt is a path through my own life, through nights when music was louder than reason, through days when a single sentence hurt more than any hangover.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eIn the first volumes, I told the story of how a boy learns to move through a world that showed him very early on how hard it can be.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eThis fourth volume is about what happens when you have stopped falling and still do not know where you actually want to run.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eAiden lives in a hell made up of clubs, commutes, apartments, and quiet afternoons.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eThe demons in his stories wear beards, perfume, and first names. They write messages, give CDs as gifts, stand at bars, lie in hotel beds. Each of them promises, for a brief moment, a small piece of heaven, and in the end there is always that familiar ground beneath his feet again, the one on which he feels alone.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eBetween Tom, Jan, Tino, Boris, and all the other figures who appear and disappear, Volume 4 tells the story of a heart that longs for arrival while shrinking back from every door that opens too far.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eWhoever holds this book in their hands is not reading a neat love story with clear lines.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eThis is about longing that throws itself into the wrong arms, about closeness that appears at the wrong moment, about decisions made out of fear rather than freedom.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eJohn becomes the outside perspective here, a witness who does not judge, but names what he sees: how someone who had to fight early in life later inflicts the burn marks on himself, so that no one else can hurt him anymore.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eCarnival, a porn party in the attic, feathers in the Rose Monday parade, hotel rooms in Hamburg, kissing in a stairwell — all of these are stages on which Aiden tries to drown out his own emptiness.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eAnd right in the middle of it stands one moment in a travel agency, a ticket to Miami Beach that, for the first time, suggests a different direction: away from the chase for validation, toward a journey that was not booked for a demon, but for himself.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eThis preface is neither an apology nor a warning.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003ePerhaps it is more a quiet request:\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eRead with an open heart, even in the moments when you do not understand Aiden. Many scenes hurt because they are honest. Many dialogues seem exaggerated until you begin to ask yourself how much of them you recognize from your own life.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eIf you find a piece of yourself in these pages, you are not alone. And if you do not, then at the very least you will gain an insight into a soul that has learned to survive in the shadows and still keeps reaching for the light again and again — even when it fears being burned by it.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eShadows of My Soul, Volume 5\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoNormal\"\u003e\u003cspan lang=\"EN-GB\" style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eM. E. 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